Oh to be 6 again.

Every time I come home I am struck by an overwhelming feeling.
Suddenly I am no longer 20 years old i am 6. It is like the younger version of myself is trying to break free. I am being pulled in two different directions, and I'm the one doing the pulling. I am unsure of how this came about, but i am somehow feel guilty for growing up. Which i know is absurd. I cannot express in words the way i feel. I can tell you that I am excited about what may happen in the future, at the same time I am scared out of my mind. Which i think is the is feeling that has come over me. Inside i just want my dad to hold me and tell me that everything is all right. But he is not, i am on my own. My parents have been a great encouragement in my life. they taught me that i could do anything that i want. I am ever in debt to them. I know that this feeling....or whatever it is will go away in time but at the time being i am scared and wish to be 6 again.