Oh to be 6 again.

Every time I come home I am struck by an overwhelming feeling.
Suddenly I am no longer 20 years old i am 6. It is like the younger version of myself is trying to break free. I am being pulled in two different directions, and I'm the one doing the pulling. I am unsure of how this came about, but i am somehow feel guilty for growing up. Which i know is absurd. I cannot express in words the way i feel. I can tell you that I am excited about what may happen in the future, at the same time I am scared out of my mind. Which i think is the is feeling that has come over me. Inside i just want my dad to hold me and tell me that everything is all right. But he is not, i am on my own. My parents have been a great encouragement in my life. they taught me that i could do anything that i want. I am ever in debt to them. I know that this feeling....or whatever it is will go away in time but at the time being i am scared and wish to be 6 again.

You Got Mail.

Such a wonderful movie.

Falling into happiness

Recently i have been feeling Gods work in my life.
For the past month or so I have been feeling down. I am not sure why, i don' t think there is any special reason it just was. I think things are starting to look up for me though. I am trying to be the person God has made me. I fail everyday but at least i am trying. I find sometimes i just give up and run in the other direction.Well i am starting to come around. The past couple of nights i have felt content in my self and what i was doing. I am not even sure the last time i had that feeling I think it came about in class. I was Old testament survey and Dr. Joe was talking about how in the Bible when people went out to spread the word they focused on helping the people before taking time to think about them selfs. Lately i have been taking a lot of time from the girls on my floor. In all reality i was scared i have no idea what i am doing. so i ran. I thought that focusing in on me would make me a better person for the floor, but God thinks other wise. I have been spending more time with my girls. I am doing it because i want to. I love them all, I know that they are teaching me to be a better person everyday. They are amazing i could have not asked for any better. they make me laugh. This entire experience has made me humble. I can see God working and moving in my life. It is wonderful. So things are good even when they are not so i think i am doing alright. The past week or so has been amazing i have had a great time. Yesterday i played in the leaves with Marisa. She has been such a blessing in my life. She is truly one of my best friends. Thanks God.

This one is for Michi.

I do not like make-up.
I do not like red.
I do not like my hair done.
Why is it that I like this picture?