Not my paper.

It may be the paper or lack of sleep but this is what i am thinking right now.

It has been a weird week. It may be the lack of sleep but I am feeling very stretched. I am starting to feel this new sense of freedom, like God is trusting me and testing me out. Although it is amazing ,i am stressed. I am starting to feel the effects. I know this is where i am supposed to be, I just want a break. I am not sure how to come by that. I am going home this weekend, I know that is not going to help. I want to go home, i do, but at the same time i don't. In a very very selfish way i want not to be needed at the same time I do. Don't get me wrong, I really want to be there for them. this week the girls have really started to show me that i am useful, but it is very taxing. sometime being the person God wants me to be is hard. I am trying but i feel like I am not doing the best i could. I heard the other day that this is the best place to be, place as in completely inadequate, this is really where God works. I am just praying that i make it through the week. so yeah.. sorry if it sounds like i am complaining, just tell me to shut up.