Reconsidering.

I have made it through 3 weeks of teaching. It seems like yesterday that i was home. It makes me sad to think that I have to leave the people i have met here. It is so weird how teaching has allow me to see things in myself I never knew were there. For example i thought i was a patient person. Yeah sometimes i feel like that is lie. I love the kids though. I always thought that i would never be able to work with Junior high, and that i never thought i would come to Asia. Yeah funny how things work out. I guess someone else had plans for me. I had an amazing momment today. I was having a hard time getting the kids to be quiet. I wanted to get through the lesson. i thought "if we get through it then we can just do nothing" right. Yeah they forget the meaning of shut your mouth. So i told them that they would write in their journals.
I was a little angry with them. I thought to my self" If you would only pay attiontion i would be able to bless you with free time." Then i remembered what my dad once told me" Betsye if you would only pay atention i would be able to bless you. I think i got the point. Saddly i had to drag my students down with me to figure it out. Somwtime i feel like how in the world can these kids like me? I feel like i am yelling at them all day. I mean they gave up there summer break to spend with me. Poor kids. Anyway, as i said before i have them write in Journals. I ask random questions just to get to know them better. Today i had them write 2 journals. The 1st was the the normal. 2nd was the punishment. Yeah ok back to my point i told them to write about anything they wanted to. I was kinda having a hard day. I was reading them some time later and i came to this one. He had wrote down. "I know it hard to teach our class but i think you do a good job, and you work hard. I think you can do it. " It was something like that. I almost cried. If you know me that is hard to do. I feel like i just starting to know these kids and now i have to leave. It stinks. although I am happy to go home a part of me will stay. I realized today that some of the people i meet here i will never see again. :( yeah so keep me in your thoughts.
So yeah here is my random disorganized blog. I hope it makes sense. Love and miss you all.